2017 was not a good year for me, Last April 2017 I was diagnosed with Stage 1 NHL. My first reaction was why me? Of all people, why me? I am getting married! Which I think is a common response to all, questioning God “Bakit ako”? For me, it was very unfair, thinking that I am alone here in AUH and during that time I’m actually on a healthy lifestyle and doing my daily workout routines. It was an ordinary day to day living for me. But everything has changed.
I had so much questions to God and I am in so much pain, emotionally. Then I realized, all that I am praying to God is to always keep my parents healthy, instead of them being sick, I am willing to shoulder all the burden. And I’m thankful because my parents are ok. Because I can’t imagine what I will do if they are the ones who are sick.
When I started having my series of tests I wanted to keep it to myself at first and not to involve anyone most especially those people who are really close to me and my family. As if what I only have is just a mild fever. Until people got to know about my sickness. My family. My friends. SFC community and colleagues at work. It was very difficult for me and I am having a lot of questions and the worst part is I don't know the answer and it adds up to the pain I am experiencing. It is very hard to accept and understand what I am having.
As time goes by, my fear was replaced with strength and confidence. Thinking all those people who are praying for me, who keeps on pushing me and encouraging me, who are very positive inspite of the sickness I have, who am I to give up and loose hope? That was the time when I have come to embraced with all humility, bravery and with all smiles the situation I am facing. I know that I have God with me. Through his unconditional love and faithfulness I know I will be healed.
All your support, prayers and kind words have overwhelmed me. I didn't have that much difficulty with my treatments. Praise God! And I always pray for all those people who has been there praying for my healing, that God will bless them more than what they deserved. I know you put extra effort to include me on their prayers. And I will be forever grateful to all of you.
Let us all be joyful in every circumstance life may bring us. Our life is a gift from God and so as our sickness and troubles are also gifts from God.
Do not be afraid "for the Lord with fight for you. BE STILL." - Exodus 14:14
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